Trying to stay positive

Yesterday I had a follow up call with the first fertility specialist I saw about a month ago. He went over my most resent blood test results. He pretty much told me what I was already expecting. He doesn't think it will be very easy for me to go through the IVF process because he believes I will only harvest a couple eggs, if any. But that's something, right?! I think if I would have really pushed it he would have agreed to start me on a cycle just to appease me. But I'm going to New Jersey and I want to see what Dr. Check says first.  The past 2 days have been really difficult for me and for no particular reason. I just find myself crying and I don't really know why. I try to stop myself immediately when I start to cry but I have to remind myself that it's okay NOT to  be okay sometimes.    I see so many people my age that are  pregnant  and sometimes  with their second child. And I am sincerely happy for them, I really am! I just always have the same thought running through my mind: "Is that ever going to be me?" Will ANYONE be able to help me and not just see me as a hopeless case?  I truly believe Dr. Check will be able to help me. I've done so much research and read that he's one of only TWO in the country that will won't turn women away with my situation. I read someone say on a forum that he could even get a man pregnant! Haha! I'm trying to stay as positive as I can and know that I have so many blessings in my life to be thankful for. God wouldn't have thrown this at me if he didn't think I'd be able to handle it.